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26th-Sep-2008 08:03 am - I never thought it possible
When the boundaries of friendship have been tried, tested, pulled and torn, one wonders is it really worth it in the end? Looking at past mistakes I've made in re to character, I wonder why I have been so willing in letting someone in that close, especially when I am so closed in every other way. The strength of a friendship falls on both parties, working on one single goal, being there for each other in any way possible. When one starts to let go, the load becomes too much to bear for one single person, and things become unbalanced.

The cardinal rule of ex's and friends is something everyone regardless of age must know, friend's do not date your ex's. So with that being the basic rule, how does one interpret the different levels of this social rule? This is where things become a little gray, does it include one night stands, friend-i-fits, or even those admired from afar? With friends one must lay down the blueprint before any sort of these situations have a possibility of happening. No one thinks of doing this, because friend's are never supposed to hurt you. Relationships are based around trust, and talking, and figuring things out to keep the relationship strong, with a slight possibility always lingering in the back, this may not work out. In friendships you don't have the same worries, you do strive to be truthful and honest, yet you never have that fear lurking in the dark corner of it ending. When your romantic world and friendship world collide its hard to know how to handle it. Most times its the male who came between, some cases it was the friend, but you manage to either work it out, or break it off with both. What can one do in the situation where you work with both of them?

For the longest time my cardinal rule was never to get involved with a coworker. I had lived by it and managed to make it work, sure there was attraction, but I never let my brain think of anymore. So why is it that us females see a male who we think is so different from the rest. We change our norms, let go of our rules in the hopes we didn't make some stupid mistake. Low and behold I made the stupid mistake thanks to the help of alcohol and a very charming coworker, luckily I am a smart enough person to not sleep with someone so easily. For the next week and a half we acted like nothing happened, yet I had a delusion that I had feelings for him. I call it a delusion, yet I think they were legitimate, very so. Who of course do I tell my feelings to? My best friend of course, who had started working with both of us a week after the drunken incident. So flash forward to Saturday night, exactly two weeks later, its party time. I decided to go to see what happens, best friend shows up with another coworker. I try and go for "round two" with the boy, only to be rejected and told of "someone else". So I leave the party, have my dramatic moment then come back because I am not the type of girl to sulk in the corner when fun is being had. So in my drunken mind I want some validation of who I am, for I never am rejected to my face. So I make out with one of his close friends, not even to spite coworker boy, rather because thats what was there being thrown at me ...

work in progress ....

yeah haven't written in here in forever, actually I haven't written anything in forever. Its funny how such emotional events trigger that creativity. Now I work ... with coworker boy, and if anyone reads this I'm sure you smart enough to know the rest ...
18th-Feb-2008 12:24 am(no subject)
Many people will walk in and out of your life, but only true friends will leave footprints in your heart. To handle yourself, use your head; to handle others, use your heart. Anger is only one letter short of danger. If someone betrays you once, it is his fault; if he betrays you twice, it is your fault. Great minds discuss ideas, average minds discuss events; small minds discuss people. He who loses money, loses much; he who loses a friend, loses much more; he who loses faith, loses all. Beautiful young people are accidents of nature, but beautiful old people are works of art. Learn from the mistakes of others, you can't live long enough to make them all yourself. Friends, you and me ... you brought another friend ... and then there were three ... we started our group ... our circle of friends ... and like that circle ... there is no beginning or end ... yesterday is history, tomorrow is mystery, today is a gift, that's why they call it the present.
22nd-Jan-2008 04:45 pm - Its an eye-opening kinda day.
Last time I wrote in here was back in August ... shit.

Soo much has happened yet it feels like barely any time has passed. I mostly felt like writing in here because of the fact I heard some shocking news today when I got home from work.

Heath Ledger, one of my favorite actors was found dead today. Its astonishing how these things happen so suddenly, to someone who you thought was living a happy life, I guess it wasn't as happy as one may think.


RIP Heath.

6th-Aug-2007 02:41 pm - new store
Hmmm haven't wrote in here in forever. Sometimes life can be pretty crazy and demanding, I rarely even check my myspace ... woah thats crazy eh?

So I'm at my new store now ... love it! Drive thru is actually tons of fun. Still waiting to get promoted ... dunno when thats gonna happen ... if ever, shit son.

Been hanging out with theeee coolest chicka ever (minus my #1 Stephanie, nobody can beat her) and both of us are thinking of moving in together. 2 bedroom apartment around Old Town Orange going for $1050 ... not bad for Orange County ... and Old Town is sooo cute.

Uh, I've been hanging out with Scotty Karate again. Shit son ... I'm retarded. However things are a bit different this time ... as in I'm really not thinking too much about it. If he wants to be with me ... fine, if he doesn't who cares? Too bad I didn't have this outlook from the beginning. Ha ... basically I enjoy his company and he enjoys mine ... and hes always giving me gas money cause I drive him around.

Works for me ...

Hope all is well for all ya'll.

3rd-Mar-2007 07:09 pm - the beginning

Ian finally called me. We're gonna meet up at Starbucks and then go over to Jasmine's to watch the UFC. I'm kinda excited.

A lot.

Merry Christmas ya'll.
I hope everybody has a very Merry Christmas.
That you get all that you wanted.
And the holiday season continues to be amazing.

5th-Oct-2006 01:59 pm(no subject)
Only two defining forces have ever offered to die for you,
Jesus Christ and the American G. I.
One died for your soul, the other for your freedom.

28th-Jun-2006 10:31 am(no subject)
So. He came into work today.

It was pretty akward. Cause I pretended I didn't notice him. When I really saw him on his way in cause I was staring off into space and saw him outside. So then he started talking to me while I made his drink ... I wanted to spit in it ...

Then he told me on Saturday he watched the Ultimate Fighter finale and had too many beers. And I was just looking at him like, "Why the hell are you telling me this? Are you stupid and forgot that I was going to hang out with you? WTF?!"

So it was kinda funny ... but weird.
22nd-Jul-2005 12:13 pm - Promote here
Well I got annoyed with having promotions on other entries ... sooo, heres the promotion entry page.

Spam all you want here, I couldn't care less ... just here and here only or else ...

23rd-Jun-2005 12:16 am - dead__icons

Alrighty, I just opened an icon community ... just this night.


So go join it!! Cause I say so!! :p

No rules yet. Oh the crazy madness!

I'd love you all forever :)

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